Saturday, January 28, 2012

He make me cry again

      Today we meet again. After so long. I miss his voice, his face everything bout him. Almost 4 years I'll wait for this moment. But today still the same thing happen. He make me cry again and again. I was so happy when he called. I was exited to meet him even that time i,m not feeling well. So freaking tired with office stuff. But still i strengthen my self to go to meet him.

        I,m mot asking him to do a big favor. Just would like to have a picture with him. Because i know after this i,m not sure when we'll meet again.


       Yes i admit that i,m so stupid waiting for him. I,m stupid coz i love him so much. I miss every moment that we have. I know he is not ready to give full commitment to me. Why i still want him. Why i still in love with him. Even i know sooner or later i will get hurt again. I,ll try not to open my heart for others coz i love him so much even i know i just hurting myself with something that i know i will not get it. Until when i want to miss him love him. I cant take it but i the one that choose to be hurt.

       Please give me some strength. I love him so much. Dam much.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Interview + nebes = Fail

Assalammualaikum Semua....

Hari nie satu lagi hari yang fail wat aku. INTERVIEW atau dalam bahasa melayunya TEMUDUGA. Setiap kali aku nk pi interview kt memana aku memang hadapi masalah nie. lagi dekat masa nak interview lagi teruk badan mengigil, tangan sejuk. Kepala terus tak boleh berfikir dengan baik. Tak tau kenapa. Dah macam2 ayat aku baca nk ilangkan rasa nebes tu tapi still jugak x menjadi. So bila masa interview benda yang aku nk cakap aku akan lupa. Benda yang aku baca hilang x tau kemana Yang paling best sekali orang tanya lain aku jawab lain. Hurm. Dah macam2 cara dh aku buat nak menghilangkan darah gemuruh nie. Pi berubat tradisional moden tp still x ok jgk. hurm. Camne lah aku nak buat cmnie...

Entah lah...